Thursday, March 3

Change Is Inevitable.

The Memory on my laptop is full.

I have not downloaded the pictures off my phone for weeks because I have no room. I am not sure what the correlation to downloading pictures is to me actually writing on my blog, but somehow there is a direct link. Maybe I only write when I can add pictures to the posts because thats how my brain works best, with pictures. Maybe I use them as a filler. Not sure now, Ill think on that one a little more.

I finally get around to blogging when I receive at least 3 text or messages from strangers on social media. That's when I know it's been too long. I use to write when I got 1 message....that's too much pressure now. lol

It has been a busy few months.

I don't know how to write about mom.

I am literally sitting here starting paragraphs, staring at my computer, then deleting the paragraphs. Im frustrated, angry and feel alone in these feelings. So, for now it's only facts.

So the facts are: She just had a PAT test. Having the PAT test allows mom to start Amino therapy after one round of chemo.
The PAT test shows speck in her lungs now too.
So dates to start the Amino therapy are what Mom and Steve are waiting for.

I hate that I use to be an EMT. I hate that I ask questions and I hate that I am never satisfied with small amounts of information. I wish I wasn't like this. I want to be like everyone else.

Other things that have happened in the last little bit. Rob Grant is coming back to NOW radio. We  start working together again next week. I would be lying if I said I wasn't nervous, but It should be fun. Hard work covering the drive again for the next 6 months, but fun.

It has been a huge 8 months of growth for me. Having Chris with me during this time has been so helpful. Change is the one thing that is always a guarantee.

Speaking of change.... Jason asked me a question, and I said yes.
We will talk about that more later.

It's been a long day, and this blog post has taken almost 2 hours to write.

So, I will call it a night and try to write more tomorrow.


I am grateful for my time working with Chris. He is the kindest man you will ever know. He has taught me so much over these 8 months. He has been so patient and understanding during all the hardships I have had to deal with.

I am grateful for the warm weather.

I am grateful for Downton Abby and the escape it gives me late at night.