Tuesday, July 3

Steps Done and Scared Shitless In A Storm

Project one off my list-Steps to the deck, done!


These are the steps and the rotten deck that goes with them. The children were playing a few weeks ago and someone walked up them and the rotten wood gave way and the steps crumbled off.




After a few hours sorting wood, finding screws at Home Depo with Sam and fixing the bent drain pipe we were ready to go. Everything was laying out organized and set... so of course the rain would come. It just added to my resolve to do this anyway, so suck it mother nature, It's gonna happen no matter what. 


I am proud to report we assembled the whole thing all by ourselves. I put every single screw in that set of steps! And I think it looks pretty damn good!




Hopefully one day I will get to fix the deck too.







Later after the kids went to bed my friend Charity agreed to come watch a scary movie with me. I am not exactly sure what the hell I was thinking, or why I thought it would be a good idea to do this, but I decided and so it was going to be done. We watched The Descent and it was a perfect choice with the weather all dark and scary already. It was about a group of friends who decided to go spelunking and they stumbled on freaky creepy slimy people who ate them one by one. It was quite possibly the worst decision I have made in weeks! But I did it... we did it! And Charity survived the evening with only a few scratch marks.  (Thanks Charity). 


I guess maybe I thought if I watched something scary it be like an electric shock treatment on my insides. Perhaps that is what I need.. EUREKA, I figured it out!! All I need is for someone to defibrillate my brain! After I watched the movie my heart was pounding so hard it took me a little bit to fall asleep, but I am still glad I did it. So that's two things off my list:


1- Paint my house.
2-Learn to use my BBQ.
3-Scare myself stiff. (I am going to watch a horror movie all by myself)
4-I am going to throw a dinner party in the next few weeks. 
5-I am going to fix my steps.
6-I am going to figure out how to smile again for real. 
7-I am going to ride my bike. 
8-I am going to read The Help that Melanie gave me months ago. 

I will add,
9-I am going to fix my washing machine. 


All in all it was a successful weekend, the children had fun and I..well, I am still kicking! 


Today:


I am grateful for the sweet letters of encouragement I have been receiving from friends and total strangers. Thank you. 


I am grateful for my friends who are supportive and willing to help. 


I am grateful for feeling a little more normal today. 


J