Monday, October 29

Foul Mood Monday

I don't think there is much hope for this day. I woke up in the foulest of moods and it is only 8:08am. I am beyond annoyed, grumpy and short tempered. It is going to be a very long day. My entire body feels angry and I did not sleep well.

I feel it is only fair that I let people know there is a very real possibility I could, upon being approached, either burst into tears and cry for an hour straight or rip your head off with my bare hands.

I do have music to share. I am going to send the kids to school and go work out. Hopefully that, along with loud angry music, will fix my mood.  





Today:

As pissy as I am, I am still grateful for my neighbor, and his landscaping company, who mowed my lawn all summer and is going to do snow removal all winter.

I am grateful for self realization and for getting what I need and not always what I want. Especially when there is a blurry hazy line between the two.

I am grateful for being old enough to see myself the way I really am and not what I wish I was.

J


Friday, October 26

Vegetarian Cooking Class

I went to another cooking class last night with Kathryn Joel, she is amazing! This class was on how to cook vegetarian. I am not vegetarian, but I think it's important and very handy to know how to prepare different dishes, especially vegetables. The class had nine of us (I went alone) and there was only one guy. It was a wonderful evening of wine, amazing food and meeting fun new people. It is, quite possibly, my most favorite thing to do on a night out alone.

Roasted Pepper Crostini


Mesclun Salad with Roasted Beetroots & Sherry Vinaigrette


Learning to make crepes


Our class. 


Buttercup Pumpkin Soup with Garlic & Chilies


Crepes with Ricotta, Spinach & Fresh Herbs


Orecchiette with Walnuts & Wild Mushrooms


Sticky Toffee Pudding. (The absolute highlight of the evening!) It's humble looking, but this beast was to die for! 

By the end of the night I felt like I not only understood food a little bit better then I had when I arrived, I also felt like I might actually blow up. 
I love learning to cook, I think everyone should know (by memory) at least 3 recipes. I feel so happy when I am cooking. When I make something out of a few ingredients and people love it..nothing beats that accomplishment. Going to this cooking class makes me want to throw another dinner party. 
Maybe that's what I will do in November. Yes, that is a great idea, I will have another dinner party! 


J

Today:

I am grateful for warm socks. 

I am grateful for hot showers. 

I am grateful for wonderful people who teach me new things. 




Thursday, October 25

Whistling And Singing Makes Me Happy.

The building that I work in actually has two radio stations in it. The one I work for 102.3 NOW radio, and our sister station 99.3 UP. I am sure it is common in radio to constantly be playing the actual station throughout the building, but here what is played flips from one stations to the other. I love getting to hear every one's shows and conversations they are having. One of my favorite things about working where I do is that at any time of the day I will be walking through the halls and I will hear people singing along to the song that is playing. I will often catch someone whistling or dancing, tapping humming or head bobbing. It is very a happy place for me and to be surrounded by other people who genuinely love music makes it such a comfortable environment.

The weather is getting really cold. We have not had snow yet, thank goodness, but you can feel it is not far off. My house is an older one, so the windows and door allows a slight breeze I find it charming in the summer but this time of year I swear at it under my breath.

Molly is doing well and adjusting wonderfully to our family and home. She has completely stopped having accidents in the house. She is a exceptionally fast learner and I can see the little bonds and relationships she is building with each of the kids. She is proving to be an excellent fit and match for us.

I have taken a break for the dating stuff. I can see that this level of torture needs to have substantial spaces of time in between sessions. I am not sure who this is more challenging for, me,  going through it and experiencing it or for my poor friends having to listen to it all and remind me that it wont always be like this.

So, like always I am just trudging along just laughing through it all.

Today:

I am grateful for nail polish. It makes me feel pretty.

I am grateful for hot showers.

I am grateful for TD reward points.

Tuesday, October 23

The Joelle Show!

Christmas came early for Joelle yesterday!

When Rob and I started our show last night there was a small present waiting for me on our ID page from producer Johnny.



I have my very own ID for the Joelle Show...with Rob! I was laughing so hard all night every time Rob would play it. (Just to be clear, I will still always be with Rob doing the Rob and Joelle Show, this is just a fun thing that was made for me when I get to run the board).

This past weekend was my first attempt at learning the board. The Boss gave me permission and feels the best way for me to learn is to just jump right in and do it. Sunday I ran the board for 30 full minutes and almost threw up the entire time. There is quite a lot to do and it really allows me to see and understand more of Robs role in everything. Something simple like remembering to turn off the mics after we are done talking gave me a stomach ache, so I am so grateful this will be a slow process and I can learn it at my own pace.

When Rob decided it was time for me to trade spots with him, it shocked me how gentle he became when talking to me. Rob and I have a very brother sister, sarcastic and playful relationship. I was expecting him to laugh and constantly make fun of me, which is pretty normal for us. To my surprise, when the song was playing down and it was getting closer to my turn, he ran through everything I will need to do to exit the song, and then he said to me with a slightly serious look on his face, "you will only ever push that button for the first time once in your life, so enjoy it." Then he smiled. I could tell he was remembering his first time too.

It was fun, and horrifying all wrapped up into 30 small minutes. I loved it!






I even got a little bit of love after my time. 



I feel very blessed. The shear awesomeness of this situation and opportunity is not lost on me. I feel it every time I sit in that chair across from Rob, even more when I stand behind the board. I am a lucky girl, I have no idea why this all happened to me, but I tell ya. I am and forever will be grateful for it!

Today:

I am grateful for wonderful co workers (Johnny) who made my very own ID's. Thank you.

I am grateful for Rob and his endless support through all this.

I am grateful Melanie heard me the first time I was running the board! Thanks for texting me your support, it meant a lot!

I am grateful, so unbelievably grateful!

J



Monday, October 22

Frosty Music Monday

Once again it has been a full week since I last blogged. Sigh..This week will be better, this week I will have way more to write about and things I am excited to share. I have been really tired these last few weeks. I don't know why, I don't think I am sick. I am just exhausted by the end of the day. I do though, have music to share. Not a week goes by when I don't find some little gem to share that moved me is some way. my offering this week is:






Natasha came for the weekend and showed me this song Sunday night before her kids left.
It is not for everyone, so only listen if you want, but you have been warned.




I need to go do my work out now, but I'll be back. I promise.

Today:

I am grateful for sleeping in.

I am grateful for a good pillow.

I am grateful for modern technology and texting.

J

Tuesday, October 16

Just To Catch Up

I received a tweet last night asking if everything was okay because I had not blogged in a week. Funny how fast the time goes and before I even notice, a full week has gone by.

Things are well. Work is good and I think Rob and I have settled back into the weekend routine nicely. I have been given the thumbs up to learn the board now, which will help me understand more of what Robs roll is and allows me to help out here and there when needed. I am very excited to learn it. It scares me to death and I am sure I will humiliate myself more than once when I make huge mistakes, but I always appreciate learning and growth.

The children are doing well. we are very comfortable in our school routines and the year is going well so far. Jenna is a huge help and completely invaluable to me and my peace of mind. Jenna has been working for me now for a few months and she fits in nicely here. Jenna is currently training as a distance runner (she has been training for all her life) but is presently trying to qualify for the Boston marathon with hopes of making the Canadian Olympic team. So her days include running and running and running some more, then working out, and watching my kids. It's a sweet set up for us both!
Jenna and I have become good friends too. Even though I am 10 years her senior we get along very well.

hmmm...what else is new? Ooh I started on line dating. That has been, for the most part, a huge nightmare. I went on one where the guy was so offensive right form the moment I sat down I was completely speechless. I introduced myself and the first thing he said was some horrific suggestions about the elimination of homosexuals off the earth. The worst part was I was so stunned I didn't know what to do except stare at him in disgust. He then followed it up with a reference to the food I was about to eat as my "pre F feast". I left shocked and angry and have never spoken to him again. I wish I would have thrown something at him

Sigh... I can't help but laugh awkwardly at how absurd some of these men are.
It has not been entirely unsuccessful  though, there has been one diamond in the rough found, but we shall see if anything comes of it.
Dating when you are a mother and in your 30's is interesting to say the least. I feel like I know myself the best, better then I ever have my whole life. I understand what I want and what I don't want and I am more sure of myself then I was in my 20's. You would think this would be fun...it is really hard. Insecurities and self doubt are constant and vicious. But, like everything, it's a process.

I am working out, and reading. Playing with my dog and laughing with my children. My pants fit big and my pretty clothes are looking better on me. I am treating myself better and learning what is good and helpful in my life vs what is damaging and harmful. I am healing and growing and putting things back in order.

I have been working on my bucket list again. I have plans this spring to cross one more big-ish thing off my list. The plans are in the works, and I can't wait to share when it become more certain.

All is well here,

J

Today:

I am grateful for feeling cared for.

I am grateful for laughing, it is the medicine that heals every ill in my life.

I am grateful for how beautiful it is outside. I love fall.








Monday, October 8

Turkey and Music, A Perfect Mix

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! It has been a nice long weekend, even though  I have had to work everyday of it, enjoyable none the less.
For music this week I have a few new picks that have recently crossed my path that I hope you like.








Today:

I am thankful for good food.

I am thankful for good and reliable babysitters. JENNA IS HOME!!!!

I am thankful for colder weather.

I am thankful for good conversation.

I am thankful for a working keyboard.

I am thankful for funny children and the freedom they feel to ask questions concerning anything they want to know about.

J




Friday, October 5

She Is Completely My Child!

For Nora's birthday I took her to the mall. It is what she wanted to do, and to be honest I really enjoyed that all she wanted was to spend time together with me. When we got to the mall she knew exactly where she wanted to go and what she wanted as a gift...the Disney store and a new princess dress. 

She took about 30 minutes to pick everything out that she wanted. It was almost as much fun for me as it was for her. 
 
After we got her the dress we walked around and just looked at things and talked. We saw Stingrays and penguins and shopped for shoes, it was a wonderful afternoon. While we were walking around the shops Nora saw a little photo booth and asked if she could get her picture taken. The closer we got to the booth I noticed it was not a standard one that just took pictures, it was one that sketches the picture after it's taken. I had no problem with that request, Nora looked so beautiful that I totally understood her wanting to remember this birthday with a special picture. I read the instructions and and had her position herself just right for the pictures and when I counted to three, I pushed the button to take the picture. The photo booth took three pictures and then she could pick from the thee which one was drawn. Lovely and elegant Nora chose this to be the one shot that is immortalized...

  
When it came out of the printer I was laughing so hard I had to sit down. She is such a funny kid!!! I kept thinking about the Goonies every time I looked at it! "Heeey youuuu guyyys"! 




There is no doubt that this child is mine! She would walk up to people and they would say, "ooh you look so pretty" and then she would show them the picture, I was laughing watching their faces! She is something! 

Today:

I am grateful for how much this little girl makes me smile and laugh. 

I am grateful for sweaters. 

I am grateful for how much she understands humor. 

J

Thursday, October 4

Another Day, Another Colour

I have changed my hair yet again. I started with red and kept that for over a year. Purple was next on the list and, although I liked it, it was short lived. Today, Today I am sporting this awesome Blue and I completely love it! I think it's my favorite of the three so far.


I would like to just say thank you to the ladies of Fusion, I love you! You do such a fantastic job of making me feel beautiful every time I come. Even (and especially) when I I come in feeling like crap!

Today:

I am grateful for my friends who babysat Molly for me these last 2 days. Chelaine even sent me pictures of the play date.

I am grateful that my cheekbones are returning!

I am grateful for getting to meet the parents of the children Nora goes to school with.

J



Tuesday, October 2

Happy 5th Birthday Nora

Happy birthday my dear girl. You are growing up so fast. I sometimes look at you and I can't believe I lived so long without you in my life. Regardless, I am so thankful to have you now.

On this special day, I want you to remember how loved you are and that I am so grateful to get to watch you develop into the woman you will one day become. I know you will bring happiness and sunshine to others.


Today:

I am grateful for your surprised look this morning when you saw your balloons.

I am grateful for your happy disposition.

I am grateful I get to spend the day with you and celebrate you.

Love Mom

Monday, October 1

Happy Birthday Mom, From My Kids


Happy Birthday Mom!
Since this blog was started Joelle has written a special message to each of her kids on their birthdays. This year the kids wrote a message for her. They answered some questions about their mom and I have to say their responses are very entertaining! They are good, funny kids and quick witted like their mom. Over the last few years that I’ve had the pleasure of knowing them, they have become more caring, funny and mature. I love them more each day. They are growing into pretty decent people thanks to a pretty decent mom. Happy Birthday Joelle!
S

1.       What do you want to say to mom on her Birthday?
Ethan – Thank you for giving me life!
Gabe – “How old is she turning?”………  Happy 30 something Birthday!
Seth – Happy Birthday! Then I’ll give her a card and some money.
Nora – Happy Birthday mom!

2.       If you could buy her any gift what would it be?
Ethan – Mansion with a Jacuzzi and an Olympic size swimming pool. Then give her enough money to keep the house as long as she likes.
Gabe – Diamond jewellery
Seth – A diamond
Nora – An England t-shirt, and some boots, and a pizza, and the biggest pack of yoghurt tubes.

3.       What is your favourite thing mom cooks/bakes?
Ethan – Got be her lemon meringue pie.
Gabe – Mint chocolate chip cookies, the hard ones if you want to get specific.
Seth – Salmon Tikka!
Nora – The chocolate pie she made me today. I like grapes!
4.       What is your favourite game she plays with you?
Ethan – Nerf guns
Gabe – Nerf guns. She is really fun.
Seth – Nerf guns
Nora – Hide and seek.
(Apparently you are very good at shooting!)

5.       What do you like doing together?
Ethan – Watching deadliest warrior at night.
Gabe – Baking!!!
Seth – Cooking with her.
Nora –Playing with her and the dog.

6.       What does she do well?
Ethan – Gets us ready for school and bake!
Gabe – She does a lot of things really well, but the best thing is making bacon.
Seth – She does the radio really well!
Nora – She has fake apples   (?!?!? LOL, she is so random)

7.       What do you help her with?
Ethan – How to operate her Nerf gun and ………. patients (?apparently you need to learn more)
Gabe – Take care of Molly
Seth – To clean up downstairs and make it all different.
Nora – I help her sweep!

8.       What reminds you of mom?
Ethan – Awesome, perfect, kittens, good shot, deadly and playful.
Gabe – Nerf guns, TV, and dogs.
Seth – Money, actually that speeding ticket (there are actually 2 speeding tickets!)
Nora –I don’t know, ask mom. (she is so funny!)

9.       What do you love about mom?
Ethan – That she can cook amazing things!
Gabe – She always has food ready for us. She is a great cook!
Seth – Everything!
Nora – That when she puts me to bed she reads me a story first.
Nora – Can you get to the part where you say you like my boots again?
 Me - You do have great boots. Do you have a boot fetish like mom?
Nora – I used to, but my brothers destroyed it.
(Me – now crying with laughter)

1   Is there anything else you want to say to mom?
Ethan – Thank you for getting Molly. Oh and if you cannot bring the horse to the water, bring the water to the horse.
Gabe – She is the best mom in the world!
Seth – Happy Birthday! I love you!
Nora –Thank you!

Today:
Ethan – I am grateful that I have a house, a good house to live in.
Gabe – I am grateful for my mom being my mom.
Seth – I am grateful for everything!
Nora –I am grateful for my castle and my doll house.