Tuesday, June 26

A Letter To Myself

I want to have a letter from myself to open right now. I want to be able to have something tangible that will reassure me that things will be okay in the foreseeable future. I want to read, in my own words, that in 6 months I am sleeping through the night. I want to be comforted that I am no longer heartbroken from breaking up with Ryan again last night and that I have stopped crying (man I would really like that).  I would give anything to read my own words telling me money is not in such short supply, but if it is, that I have at least figured out how to pay off my major bills without having to resort to selling any organs. I would like to read that no more major appliances have broken down, and that everyone in my direct circle of peers and friends is healthy and well. I could handle reading that my car has escaped any major incidents, and I would like to read how prepared I am for Christmas, and how wonderful things are, and that it is the mildest winter we have had in years. And if it's not asking too much, I would like to read that my skinny jeans are super comfortable and are going to look fantastic for the new years eve party I am going to. 

I can dream, can't I?

Today:

I am grateful for all my friends who love me and who will send me the name of a song that is upbeat and cheerful so I have something to listen to so I can stop making myself crazy listening to sad "my heart is broken" songs! (BIG hint hint!)

I am grateful for the guys I work with, who have inadvertently, and possibly unwillingly, become the male role fillers in my life right now. Thanks for making me laugh. 

I am grateful the children are almost done school! 

I am grateful for Sam who is going to let me use her washing machine (when I ask her) because mine has broken AGAIN!!! (ooh Sam, I have a question for you...)

I am grateful for a new toothbrush. 'Cause hell, if I can't find and keep love, at least I have clean teeth! 

J








2 comments:

Peter S. said...

Would it be too cheesy to suggest Don't Worry Be Happy from Bobby McFerrin? :P

A song I would suggest is "You Gotta Believe" from the Rocket Summer. His lyrics and music are so upbeat and cheerful, very soulful too. They help me through my tough times.

And I may not be able to predict the future, but I know you'll be at a great place 6 months from now, even stronger than you are now, and even happier too :)

ken said...

Hi Joelle, I wish so much that the things in the letter will come true for you. I'm happy that you have your radio family right now. All that I can say is I love your show, you guys always make me laugh. Please don't get too down on things that are going on. It will turn around. Your doing a great job and are quite the inspiration. Thanks. :)