Monday, February 13

One Of The Biggest Moments Of My Life.

Today I went in to work. I go "in to work" now for a few more weeks until my co-host thing gets sorted out.

Speaking of which; I met Rob the Englishman that I might get to work with. He and I have been texting and chatting on and off for a few weeks now. Today was his first day. He is really nice. He is tall, wore a scarf and had incredible shoes! Exactly how I remember European men to dress! It made me smile. We chatted for just under an hour in our boss's office and then he had a million things to go do at the station with everyone else. I will get to spend more one-on-one time with him as the week goes on.

The reason today was great was a single moment I had in my boss's office in the morning. My boss has been out of town for the last 2 weeks, so we caught up on everything that has been going on, this and that.
Then out of no where he pushes me a little stack of papers. At the top of the front page of that humble stack of papers it read CONTRACT OF EMPLOYMENT.

I was not expecting this at all, I mean I was hoping, but this happening today was a surprise. I just looked at this legal stack of papers that had my name on the top and every emotion that had ever been felt while I dreamed about this moment came racing out at the same time. It's like every single emotion that I have bottled up for months finally saw their chance to escape so they all went running wild like crazed savages to the slightly opened door and spewed out my eyes and down my face. I just bawled!

This paper with my name at the top is what I have laid in bed dreaming about from the beginning. When I have been so unsure of everything else in my life, this little stack of papers is what I would concentrate on. One day believing that what the universe had planned for me would show up in writing. Legally binding me to people who saw value in me, believed in me, saw potential and were willing to put their money where their mouth was.
I am no longer an experiment or a test run. I am no longer a try or a fun story.

It felt good..It felt damn good!

We went into another office where two more of these little beauties were printed off and I had to sign my name to them all. Three times confirming that this was for real!

(Big Breath)...it was a glorious moment!

I sat at my little desk for a few minutes to soak it all in. I wanted to tell someone so badly, my chest just ached. So I texted Chris, I wanted him to know first.  He told me he was so proud of me, and congratulations.

Today is a day I will think about often. Today is a day I will talk about with my children for years. Today was a very special day.


This is my contract! In all its glory!!!! Today is a good day!

Today:

I am grateful. Completely and entirely for the things in my life that made this possible. I am grateful for breaking my stupid leg and for the months of pain. For my friend who told me to write a blog so I would not lose my mind after breaking my leg. I am  grateful for Physio Guy for endless amounts of things to write about and for keeping my spirits up. I am grateful for Adam who picked me to be his intern one day. I am grateful for  him forwarding the thank you I wrote to his boss and for them reading my blog and seeing me, the real me. My heart is so full of gratitude its spewing out my eyes again and down my face.

I am grateful for the support I have from my friends and loved ones. I could never do any of this without you. Thank you for understanding my dreams need some help for a little while.

I am grateful for finally seeing value in myself. It needed to be shown, but I do see it now.

J


I have another addition to my bucket list. I want to one day do something really special for Physio Guy to show him how thankful I am for him fixing my ankle and knee. He made it so I can not only walk and play basketball again, but because of him I can wear high heels, and in a very not so indirect way helped my blog become what it did and helped me get to where I am now. Thank you my friend! One day I will have friends on the Edmonton Oilers team and will get you a dream come true, where you can meet your favorite player and play with them, get a jersey signed (the old school one) and you can finally see how wonderful you are to me!!!  I know this will happen, cause you helped fix me and I know when you do good, good is returned!

4 comments:

ken said...

good for you J, congradulations! :)

Anonymous said...

So very cool Joelle...best wishes in this new journey.
Terri

Tanya said...

Congratulations!

Anonymous said...

Joelle-some of that special stuff is spewing out of my eyes and nose now too, as I read this! Congratulations on your special day. Know your Aunt Joey is SOOOO happy for you! Isn't The Universe Awesome?!