I love a long weekend, even when I have to work. I love the smell of sun on my shoulders, the sound of children laughing and playing on the lawn, BBQ and of course good music.
So to help aide in the enjoyment of your weekend I will provide a few songs I am listening to as well. Enjoy!
My New Favorite From Macklemore
Summertime -Mungo Jerry
A Little Party Never Killed Nobody-Fergie
Blurred Lines-Robin Thicke
Today:
I am grateful for good pillows.
I am grateful for the Shaw guy who came to fix my TV so I can watch Game Of Thrones.
I am grateful for ice cream floats.
J
Monday, May 20
Sunday, May 19
Italian Fountains And Happiness.
When I was in Italy for the grand total of 24 hours a few years ago I got to see the amazing Fontana Di Trevi. After walking down back streets in rather humid weather for what felt like forever, I finally arrived.
The myth at the Fontana is if you make a wish (as it is with most fountains) and throw in money, your wish will come true. I sat at the edge of the fountain for a while deciding what I wanted to wish. When I was confident I had figured out the perfect wish and the perfect wording for this wish (I had to make sure it was perfect because I didn't know when I would ever be back to do it again) I grabbed my coins and tossed them in.
My wish was that Drew would find happiness first. I wanted him to find someone and make a life that he was happy with. I wanted my children to be happy too, then when all that was settled, I wished that I would find happiness too. Drew and R are due with a baby in a few weeks, he looks happy and healthy. We all get along well, there is no tension. We communicate about the children respectfully and peacefully. It is exactly where I dreamed we could get this.
I have never wished for life to be easy, or without stress and problems. That is silly and impossible, but I do believe that happiness can still be found amongst life's garbage.
Yesterday I was so happy. I have been happy for a while now. Yesterday during a BBQ at my house with friends and children all around I could see how happy my kids are. The house was filled with food, music and laughter and when the day was ending I saw this comment in my inbox from a post I had put up on my blog...
The myth at the Fontana is if you make a wish (as it is with most fountains) and throw in money, your wish will come true. I sat at the edge of the fountain for a while deciding what I wanted to wish. When I was confident I had figured out the perfect wish and the perfect wording for this wish (I had to make sure it was perfect because I didn't know when I would ever be back to do it again) I grabbed my coins and tossed them in.
My wish was that Drew would find happiness first. I wanted him to find someone and make a life that he was happy with. I wanted my children to be happy too, then when all that was settled, I wished that I would find happiness too. Drew and R are due with a baby in a few weeks, he looks happy and healthy. We all get along well, there is no tension. We communicate about the children respectfully and peacefully. It is exactly where I dreamed we could get this.
I have never wished for life to be easy, or without stress and problems. That is silly and impossible, but I do believe that happiness can still be found amongst life's garbage.
Yesterday I was so happy. I have been happy for a while now. Yesterday during a BBQ at my house with friends and children all around I could see how happy my kids are. The house was filled with food, music and laughter and when the day was ending I saw this comment in my inbox from a post I had put up on my blog...
KenMay 18, 2013 at 11:36 AM
Joelle,
I was looking at the pictures that you've been posting lately.
(especially last post) They seemed different to me, and I had decided
that you seem to appear to have a greater sense of happiness about you
in them. Not that you didn't appear happy in previous pictures, the new
ones are just different.
I'm glad that you're feeling that you're in a better place. :)
I'm glad that you're feeling that you're in a better place. :)
I am happy Ken. I know what happiness is, and to be honest I dont know If I really understood it completely before. I know happiness has nothing to do with money and happiness can be found even when life is challenging and is present when I am single. I am in charge of my happiness.
Thank you for noticing what I have been working so hard on.
Today:
I am grateful for learning to truly live on a budget.
I am grateful for sprinklers from walmart on hot days that little children jump and play in.
I am grateful for how good cold beer tastes on hot days.
J
Saturday, May 18
The Ugly Cry At Yoga
I was invited to go to hot yoga last night with my friend. It has been a while since I went last. I really enjoyed it and have wanted to go again, but as it is with stuff like this, life seems to get in the way. So this invite seemed like a perfect time to get back into it.
It was a Yin class, so mostly just stretching. It was good and I was completely enjoying myself... until out of nowhere while I was in a pose and stretching I became completely overwhelmed and began crying.
I have absolutely NO idea where the hell this came from. I was having a fantastic day, I was enjoying this class, everything was great. There was even a really attractive man in front of me, so to have this massive flood of emotion completely blindside me was confusing to say the least. There I was doing a hip stretch with snot, tears and sweat running down my face! I couldn't even control it or make it stop, and I found the longer I held the pose the harder the tears came charging out of my eyes.
Strangest experience I have had in a very long time. I wasn't sad, I was just crying.
When the class was over the instructor came up to me to ask if I enjoyed myself and how I felt it went. When I asked her "what the H was with me crying" she smiled and said that sometimes happens in yoga and to not be surprised, we hold emotion in different parts of our body and yoga helps release it. That made me feel a little better, but perhaps that might be something you say to the class BEFORE we begin, you know, so class member don't feel like they should go to a psychiatrist after the class ends.
When it was all done, I felt fantastic and lighter. It was a perfect way to start a work week!
Today:
I am grateful for a beautiful long weekend with my kids.
I am grateful for friends and loved ones.
I am grateful things in my life are so very different than they were this time last year. Time is such a gift.
J
It was a Yin class, so mostly just stretching. It was good and I was completely enjoying myself... until out of nowhere while I was in a pose and stretching I became completely overwhelmed and began crying.
I have absolutely NO idea where the hell this came from. I was having a fantastic day, I was enjoying this class, everything was great. There was even a really attractive man in front of me, so to have this massive flood of emotion completely blindside me was confusing to say the least. There I was doing a hip stretch with snot, tears and sweat running down my face! I couldn't even control it or make it stop, and I found the longer I held the pose the harder the tears came charging out of my eyes.
Strangest experience I have had in a very long time. I wasn't sad, I was just crying.
When the class was over the instructor came up to me to ask if I enjoyed myself and how I felt it went. When I asked her "what the H was with me crying" she smiled and said that sometimes happens in yoga and to not be surprised, we hold emotion in different parts of our body and yoga helps release it. That made me feel a little better, but perhaps that might be something you say to the class BEFORE we begin, you know, so class member don't feel like they should go to a psychiatrist after the class ends.
When it was all done, I felt fantastic and lighter. It was a perfect way to start a work week!
Today:
I am grateful for a beautiful long weekend with my kids.
I am grateful for friends and loved ones.
I am grateful things in my life are so very different than they were this time last year. Time is such a gift.
J
Friday, May 17
The Last Of Our Garlic King and Queen Shenanigans
The last event for our reign as Sorrentino's Garlic King and Queen was last week. The Garlic Festival is over now and to end the festivities we (Rob & I) we asked to go to each Sorrentinos restaurant in Edmonton and say hello and thank you to every single quest, give them a mint and remind them that they are helping support the Compassion House.
As is most things Rob and I do, it was just a lot of fun and ass-hattery!
I had such a wonderful evening. It was fun to get out and meet new people, laugh and do it all for a fantastic cause! Sorrentinos took such great care of us and spoiled us rotten!
Today:
I am grateful for special things we get to do because of work.
I am grateful I got to "bond" with this Aston Martin, clearly this means Danial Craig and I will wed soon.
Our reception will be held at Sorrentions.
I am grateful for a good toothbrush.
J
As is most things Rob and I do, it was just a lot of fun and ass-hattery!
I had such a wonderful evening. It was fun to get out and meet new people, laugh and do it all for a fantastic cause! Sorrentinos took such great care of us and spoiled us rotten!
Today:
I am grateful for special things we get to do because of work.
I am grateful I got to "bond" with this Aston Martin, clearly this means Danial Craig and I will wed soon.
Our reception will be held at Sorrentions.
I am grateful for a good toothbrush.
J
Tuesday, May 14
Teabags and Olympic Jenna
So after I thought the computer was fixed it had to go back to the repair shop again because of more viruses. I have completely had enough of this damn thing and I am ready to throw a hammer through it (the computer that is) I won't but I really want to someday!
Breath in....Breath out...
Sigh... So now it should be good. SHOULD being the key word here.
Jenna (super Olympic nanny) had a race last week and she finished 8th over all out of 264 people. 4th for woman, and 1st in her age group. With a time of 38 minutes and 21 seconds. She is training hard and doing
well. We are so proud of her. I think I will start calling her Olympic Jenna as a way of supporting her to achieve her dreams, also it will be my subliminal messaging to Nike to sponsor her.
I think Olympic Jenna might be moving in to the house soon too. Having a live in nanny will be way more convenient for us both and the poor girl can then sleep in a real bed instead of on the couch on the nights I work until midnight. Not too sure what it will be like supporting 6 people on my own, but I feel its the right thing to do and I am up for the challenge, but if I end up in a padded room with a white jacket on, from taking on more then I can handle, please come visit me.
Anyway, back to Olympic Jenna's race. When she was leaving to go home the night before her race and the kids and I wanted to shower her with our best wishes and tell her how proud of her we were so on her way out I was saying good luck, run fast..then out of nowhere Ethan says to Jenna "may the odds be ever in your favor!"
Seriously I love my children. They are some of the funniest people I know. For Mothers Day Seth made me a card at school and attached 2 tea bags to it. When I was with them and Seth and I were going to have the tea I asked him to put the tea bags in the mugs to which the boys erupted in laughter.
I didn't understand why everyone was laughing so I asked Seth again to put the teabags in the cups and that caused round two of the giggles... then it dawned on me, MY BOYS ARE LAUGHING AT THE WORD TEABAG...ugh. They don't stay innocent for very long do they? Little turds!
Today:
I am grateful for Olympic Jenna and all her help. She is a cool girl.
I am grateful for this job of motherhood. As hard and as exhausting as it is, it is so very very rewarding.
I am grateful for the constant support from good friends who love me and I love them.
J
Breath in....Breath out...
Sigh... So now it should be good. SHOULD being the key word here.
Jenna (super Olympic nanny) had a race last week and she finished 8th over all out of 264 people. 4th for woman, and 1st in her age group. With a time of 38 minutes and 21 seconds. She is training hard and doing
well. We are so proud of her. I think I will start calling her Olympic Jenna as a way of supporting her to achieve her dreams, also it will be my subliminal messaging to Nike to sponsor her.
I think Olympic Jenna might be moving in to the house soon too. Having a live in nanny will be way more convenient for us both and the poor girl can then sleep in a real bed instead of on the couch on the nights I work until midnight. Not too sure what it will be like supporting 6 people on my own, but I feel its the right thing to do and I am up for the challenge, but if I end up in a padded room with a white jacket on, from taking on more then I can handle, please come visit me.
Anyway, back to Olympic Jenna's race. When she was leaving to go home the night before her race and the kids and I wanted to shower her with our best wishes and tell her how proud of her we were so on her way out I was saying good luck, run fast..then out of nowhere Ethan says to Jenna "may the odds be ever in your favor!"
Seriously I love my children. They are some of the funniest people I know. For Mothers Day Seth made me a card at school and attached 2 tea bags to it. When I was with them and Seth and I were going to have the tea I asked him to put the tea bags in the mugs to which the boys erupted in laughter.
I didn't understand why everyone was laughing so I asked Seth again to put the teabags in the cups and that caused round two of the giggles... then it dawned on me, MY BOYS ARE LAUGHING AT THE WORD TEABAG...ugh. They don't stay innocent for very long do they? Little turds!
Today:
I am grateful for Olympic Jenna and all her help. She is a cool girl.
I am grateful for this job of motherhood. As hard and as exhausting as it is, it is so very very rewarding.
I am grateful for the constant support from good friends who love me and I love them.
J
Thursday, May 9
The Majestic Cow
My computer has been on the fritz the last few weeks. While I would try to blog and be in the middle of writing a post out of nowhere this weird blue screen would pop up and shut off my computer.
Annoying as hell! Then when I would log back in, not only did it add an additional 20 minutes to my already tight time frame, it would have not saved what I had already written. Forcing me to re-write everything again. After talking to people who know way more about this crap then I do, apparently this blue screen (of death as its lovingly referred to) is not a good thing and I needed to have this looked at.
So after a week of my computer being in the shop, it has finally been returned to me so I can resume my blogging.
I have a load of things to catch up on. But the one story I could not wait to share was the conversation I had with the kids the other day.
After dinner one night we decided to go for a walk to the park and play basketball. I am pretty open with the kids about the fact that I am dating, I don't go into great detail with them but they know I go out once in a while. When we were out for our walk/shooting hoops it is out tradition that we chat and the kids ask questions, and dating was the topic on this evening.
Gabe: Mom, How has the dating been going?
Me: Okay I guess, why do you ask?
Gabe: I was just wondering if the majestic cow has appeared on any of your dates yet?
Me: What in the H is the majestic cow? And why would it appear on one of my dates?
Gabe: Well, (he is laughing his beautiful laugh now, an the other children are giggling too) when the Majestic cow appears that is how you know the guy you are with is your true love mom. So keep watching for it.
These children of mine are so fun. I love this age.
Today:
I am grateful for encouraging friends.
I am grateful for healthy and happy children.
I am grateful for water. (I don't love how often I have to pee when I am trying to drink so much of it, but I guess there are worse things to complain about.)
J
Annoying as hell! Then when I would log back in, not only did it add an additional 20 minutes to my already tight time frame, it would have not saved what I had already written. Forcing me to re-write everything again. After talking to people who know way more about this crap then I do, apparently this blue screen (of death as its lovingly referred to) is not a good thing and I needed to have this looked at.
So after a week of my computer being in the shop, it has finally been returned to me so I can resume my blogging.
I have a load of things to catch up on. But the one story I could not wait to share was the conversation I had with the kids the other day.
After dinner one night we decided to go for a walk to the park and play basketball. I am pretty open with the kids about the fact that I am dating, I don't go into great detail with them but they know I go out once in a while. When we were out for our walk/shooting hoops it is out tradition that we chat and the kids ask questions, and dating was the topic on this evening.
Gabe: Mom, How has the dating been going?
Me: Okay I guess, why do you ask?
Gabe: I was just wondering if the majestic cow has appeared on any of your dates yet?
Me: What in the H is the majestic cow? And why would it appear on one of my dates?
Gabe: Well, (he is laughing his beautiful laugh now, an the other children are giggling too) when the Majestic cow appears that is how you know the guy you are with is your true love mom. So keep watching for it.
These children of mine are so fun. I love this age.
Today:
I am grateful for encouraging friends.
I am grateful for healthy and happy children.
I am grateful for water. (I don't love how often I have to pee when I am trying to drink so much of it, but I guess there are worse things to complain about.)
J
Wednesday, April 24
My Very First Show...And I Almost Died.
It finally happened. I finally ran the board all by myself.
Go on...take a listen.
https://soundcloud.com/robandjoelle/the-end-of-the-rob-and-joelle
None of this was scripted. I had no idea he was going to leave. Looking back on it now, I should have thought about it, but I figured he knew how little I clearly knew, there would be no way he would leave me...
ooh, maybe he would.
All I kept thinking was, just breath, you can do anything if you had to. My hands were shaking so bad I had to rub them and my heart was pounding out of my chest. I was breathing to a four count like I make my Doula clients and I was trying to not throw up.
I was getting some support via text from listeners, which helped a lot.
After it was all done and Rob walked back into the studio it was like all the emotions I had felt and held back just came bursting out in relief and I just started crying! My heart was beating so fast from adrenaline it felt like I was doing an emerg call again. Like I had just worked a code and we were all just wired.
I never want Rob to leave again, but man does it ever feel good to know I can do it if I had to. That's how I learn best...just plug my nose and dive right in.
Today:
I am grateful for the support of my dear friends.
I am grateful for Rob.
I am grateful that nothing blew up.
J
Go on...take a listen.
https://soundcloud.com/robandjoelle/the-end-of-the-rob-and-joelle
None of this was scripted. I had no idea he was going to leave. Looking back on it now, I should have thought about it, but I figured he knew how little I clearly knew, there would be no way he would leave me...
ooh, maybe he would.
All I kept thinking was, just breath, you can do anything if you had to. My hands were shaking so bad I had to rub them and my heart was pounding out of my chest. I was breathing to a four count like I make my Doula clients and I was trying to not throw up.
I was getting some support via text from listeners, which helped a lot.
After it was all done and Rob walked back into the studio it was like all the emotions I had felt and held back just came bursting out in relief and I just started crying! My heart was beating so fast from adrenaline it felt like I was doing an emerg call again. Like I had just worked a code and we were all just wired.
I never want Rob to leave again, but man does it ever feel good to know I can do it if I had to. That's how I learn best...just plug my nose and dive right in.
Today:
I am grateful for the support of my dear friends.
I am grateful for Rob.
I am grateful that nothing blew up.
J
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